mood problem

I’m trying to control my study mood right now. It’s really hard! I was so upset, I felt so weak. Well, it wasn’t that simple basically. It’s not only about my mood, but there is something that makes my brain don’t want to compromise. It’s been disrupting my mind over the past two weeks. I just couldn’t get over it. I was almost cry. It’s really hard. What worries me that, even the exam is still a month ahead, I’ll gonna be in this awful situation til the time is up. I don’t want that. I want to change everything before it’s too late. And I don’t want to feel regret after all these happened. I pray every single night and I’m sure God will help me this time. I’ve been very patience lately, and I learnt from it. I learnt how to control and cool things down. I’m greatful of that.

I’m thinking of doing something different. Maybe I should find new environment so I can study and relax without any disruption. I’m lucky that I study in a very very big campus which has good facilities for students to study. I have lots of options actually - hmm.. under the tree? (that sounds nice… but i don’t think it works for me, coz i might watching people passing me rather than studying). How about library? That’ll do. But I just need a cozy spot, so I think I have to do some kind of ‘research’… hahaha.. go to one library to another. A friend of mine, Loretta, told me that Law library is very nice place to study. I haven’t been there, but maybe I can go there sometime. I’ve only been to SSH, Biology, and Engineering Library, and there are some other libraries in UQ that I haven’t been to. Hmm… We’ll see 2morro.